Thoughts

It's January 3, and yet I'm sitting on my bed in a t-shirt with the fan on high. It is bright and sunny out, and at a nice warm temperature in the 70's. Tomorrow, we expect it to be 25 degrees, and raining. Although the weather is unpredictable at times, there is no other place on earth I would rather live than in Texas.

Today there is nothing on my schedule. Normally, I would have to either work from 10-2, or dance from 1-3, but we are on holiday from both. There is a hockey game at 5:30 I think, but I don't plan on going. My sister is away for today and tomorrow, so I intend on using all the time possible being alone. It's one of the things I enjoy most. I guess when I'm on my own I'll be perfectly happy and content, so long as I have a good stable job.

I have decided to keep this blog completely private. I have not told any of my family or friends that I have picked up blogging again. I like to write on the internet, because it gives me the feeling of being able to express myself in "public," but at the same time, it lies unseen in all the millions of read-worthy blogs. I stopped blogging back in the summer for several reasons. It was being used as a way to harass me and to place blame where all my friends could see it. It was used to vent angrily. Altogether, it was a very negative place, and I didn't enjoy it anymore. I was afraid to truly speak my mind. I was very insecure when I blogged, and so I stopped. I haven't deleted it (yet) because it does have a few entries that are somewhat important to me, and good works of writing. But I won't be able to use it again for my personal enjoyment.

So I made this one, and hopefully, my other blog will be abandoned enough that no one will be able to find me here - not even my parents.

In time, maybe I'll be able to write freely again, but in the near future, everything is going to be put away for my private use only. And I like it that way.