ehhh.

I'm not a good blogger... I'm more of a complainer. Complainers suck... Therefore, I suck. w00t.

so yeah. lovely weather today....

Up and Up.

Emma hates Microsoft Word.

The End.

Too many serial murder movies?

I was cutting up chicken tonight with one of my dad's big, pretty kitchen knives. I love to cut up chicken. Knife tearing through flesh, y'know? It's a good outlet, believe it or not. Like boxing is for some kids. You get to hammer out all your pain and fury to a lifeless weight. Same thing for me, on a lifeless chicken.

I would NEVER, EVER (shall I repeat? NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER) cut myself or a person on purpose for bad reasons ("good" reasons would be "life saving" reasons). Ever. I just like to cut dead chickens.

But the whole time, I had a creepy rhyme in my head that I still can't get rid of...

Snip, snack, slice, crack.
Break the neck, snap the back.

Think I've been watching too many horror/murder movies? Hmm.

That chicken is going to be awfully good eating, though. I'm marinating it overnight. *shivers with delight* Tomorrow, I'm going to grill it, and serve it with mashed potatoes and green beans. I'm making myself hungry just thinking about it, and my mouth is watering.

This is what I get for eating nothing but pizza and hot dogs for weeks at a time, and I hate it. Tomorrow, it will be REAL FOOD. *dies of happiness*

I'm going to go to bed to dream of little chickens diving into a pool of bubbling marinade...

Odds and ends

Today was a stay at home day, and it was nice. Last night I bought a desk from Ikea, and assembled it this afternoon. Now I just have to clean up my mess...

Texas needs to make up it's mind. Early this week, there was ice and snow everywhere. Today, it was around 70 all day, with no wind. O.o

I like staying in my pajamas all day... Just thought I'd put that out there...

NEW FAVORITE MOVIE: Sweeny Todd. I have those songs stuck in my head, and I LOVE IT. That is a definite purchase in my near future. Oh yes. I need to get a poster of him to put up next to The Joker.... hmm. I should get one of Hannibal Lector too, so I can have a psychopath wall. xD lol I doubt my mom would allow that... Oh well.

So NOT watching the Super Bowl tonight. Ugh. I don't really like either teams, so it's kinda pointless to watch. I'm probably going to watch a move instead. I like movies. :D

Speaking of, I watched Elizabethtown this afternoon... Interesting, to say the least. I think I liked it... I'm not sure. For some odd reason, for about the first hour, I felt really sad, like there was a heavy rock in my chest. I wanted to shut my laptop and cry... but as it progressed, I felt better. It was really strange.

I wonder what we're having for dinner tonight... my mom probably won't cook, so I'll bet anything that it will be cereal. Which is fine by me. I like cereal...

Okay I'm leaving now..


for reall...

quit reading this...

it will just let you down...

bye

Against my... will?

Going to see the pastor this morning. And I really, REALLY don't want to... but I made the appointment, so I figure he'd probably be kinda ticked if I didn't show up. I have to remember to pack some kleenex or make sure that my sleeves are long enough...

Eh... if anyone reads this, pray that this will go well and that my words will come logically out of my mouth.

Deleting spree.

Sometimes I wish one could erase conversations, days, hours, maybe even years like one can erase blog posts. But then, it would probably cause a lot of confusion for the people included when they have big blank spots in their memories.... Hmm.

I don't really know what to talk about. I'm afraid to say anything too personal for fear of someone reading this that I don't want to. So I have 3 options: blog within the guidelines, not blog at all, or set it so that only I can read it, or just readers of my choice. And all three of those options are increasingly dull... Too bad there's not an option to just not give a flip what anyone else thinks or cares. I guess that's what got me in trouble in the first place, and therefore, I guess it's time to shut the doors on myself, again.

So, the only option I'm really comfortable with now is blogging about insignificant specks of nothing that pertain to my life, such as the weather, my breakfast cereal, and my constant distress about which shoes to wear. Anything emotional will probably lead to my downfall...

Oh well. I was never very good at venting gracefully anyway.

Working all alone

Normally, only one person works on Saturdays from 10-2, but today I had to get here at 8. I hate not being able to drive myself places... I really don't even want to open, but I'm being paid to sit here and do nothing... I hope it's slow today. I don't really feel like having a lot of customers. I don't really feel like being here at all, actually.

Would have written in this sooner, but my laptop is not cooperating with my dad's internet router. I don't know how he has it set up, but I can't do almost anything in my given 2 hours, and it's a pain in the rump. It's also frustrating because I can't get him to care about it. Ugh. I thought having my own computer would make my life a lot easier, but sometimes it just makes it a little more complicated.

Speaking of complicated... One of my best friends is seeing a girl. I am completely happy about this, because he used to be obsessed with me, and I hated it. However, I'm kinda upset because now, he doesn't talk to me very much at all. I tried to text him last night, but he brushed me off because Lydia was there. I feel replaced... I'm just wondering when he won't try to reach me at all because he's got her to talk to.

Ugh.